today was tiring + UNFRUITFUL -stamps foot heh actually i have nothing to wear for prom cos everyone has like BOUGHT EVERYTHING FROM THE SHOPS but then again i dont really care so hah i will go for prom in shorts so THERE

but i guess it doesnt really matter to me what i wear for prom cos just about everyone is going to go there and attempt to outdress each other dunno for WHO to see la but thats besides the point heh but that ultimately i want whatever i wear to reflect my values and reflect the God that i believe in and the salvation that i have been given so freely.

but know the Lord still works in vvvvvvvvvVVVVVV funny ways which i myself basically cannot comprehend heh jia was running around the whole day with me cos number three was SLEEPINGG at home and number one was quarantined to do her packing and we spent more than two thirds of the day travelling cos we refused to take cabs and we just spent the entire time we walked/bused/mrted talking and we made a gougoushouzhi pact for next year HAH shall not tell anyone what it was about -whispers and so the plan is to shoot each other if we do the thing which we promised we wont do (:

heh anyway both of us concluded that shopping really is useless la you go out and shop for clothes/accessories/idunnowhat to wear on your next shopping trip O_______o but yea i like it la but grrrrr must put on full armour [ephesians 6:10-20] and fight inSidous satan -punches

sometimes i see things that really frighten me. the extent to which satan can attack people is just like WHOA its just frightening to see people go off into the party/clubbing state of mind and voluntarily step into a world of smoke, loud music, alcohol and goodness knows what. talked to balo on sunday and she was saying that she was going to some party on the night of her prom and yea so i grabbed her and told her not to drink and she just refused to promise me that she wouldnt drink la she just said she would drink 'moderately' and not get drunk cos she has to take care of her friends that are gonna get drunk. and i really wonder. i dont dare to say that i'll 'NEVER' step into a club cos honestly i have no idea what lies ahead. but right now what i know is that going to a club is not one of the things which will reflect the salvation which has been given to me so freely and right now is not something that i would want to do. never say never but all i can do is ground and establish my faith in such a way that i stand myself in good stead, with the Lord to fend off whatever evil inSidious things which satan so conveniently decides to THROW MY WAY grr.

during service yesterday the chairman was telling us about one of the boys in one of the bethany orphanages overseas and his story of how he was brought to the orphanage. basically he was being beaten by his father and a stranger came along that wanted to take him away from his dad so he asked him how much he wanted for the child which he was on the verge of killing and he said $1.50. i just bought famous amos cookies for $3.95 just now and if it could have saved a young child from murder i really think that would've been a thousand times more worth it than the stupid ripoff cookies. and i guess the Lord really is teaching me, teaching each one of us to have a heart of compassion, learning to love, to serve and to give, as freely as this salvation was given to us.

money is not the root of all evil- satan is. he's just PUSHING THE BLAME. money can do good, and thats exactly what i intend to do with mine. i will attempt very hard to prevent t aileen and number one from cabbing everytime they go out and i will not spend money on unecessary things ahHAH like a silly prom dress

heh number one was telling me and three about jia's horrifying behavious last time with all the -ahem- explitives and goodnessknowswhatelse and yes i admit i admit i've done it too and to me it really is the Lord's hand that has led, has guided, changed and molded each one of us into each individual we are now. not perfect for sure, but nonetheless living for Him and better (: i still struggle with the problem of selfcontrol yes i often feel like throttling people and screaming all sorts of #@! at them yes you get the idea but i will not because this is my promise to Him and though i know i will fall, i will get through (:

You're just too good to be true, cant take my eyes off of You, You'd be like Heaven to touch, i wanna hold You so much. at long last love has arrived, and i thank God im alive, You're just too good to be true, cant take my eyes off of You.

turn Your eyes upon Jesus, and KEEP 'EM THERE (: