had the performance at the istana today and it was a really wonderful experience! felt so happy singing with all my favorite j1s and 2s again :D and taking a break from studying and thanking the Lord for the beautiful day (: studied with chua tatt joey owen and swee after and hurm my math is quite screwed but im trying, really trying!

went to the esplanade for dinner with my family just now and the pretty lights and scenary kinda sent me into a contemplative mood so hm. haha yea. i've seen and heard alot of things recently that really have made an impact on the way i see life and made me realise how sheltered and protected and very very blessed i am.

was at the doctor's the other day and there were these three kids outside the clinic and the eldest sister was one big terror and she was terrorizing her two younger siblings and the lousy mother did like NOTHING to discourage her absolute EVILITY [for the lack of a better word but anw/] thats an example of one of the kids i would absolutely love to give one tight slap and destroy her brattiness. which is pretty strong cos i really do love kids. but yea the learning point came when her little sister gave up trying to fight and just listened to whatever she was told to do. and seriously watching the two little ones being forced into such horrid subservience made me wonder what kind of a life they would live next time. and the probability that they become troubled kids is much higher too. thought of how much the world needs the Lord and how selfish i've been holding this light too much to myself recently.

then i watched the documentary on hiroshima yesterday and it was wow. but wow in a really bad way. watching the entire process of history repeat itself was like a nightmare unfolding in front of me, a nightmare to which i already knew the ending. but watching how real the effects of the bomb were depicted and the kind of devastating effects it had on people were just. the shock wave that destroyed everything in the way, the fire wave that vaporised people, and the pressure wave that well, added destruction just freaked me out. something that kinda got me up from the war-free country i've been living in since i was born. realising that i take too much for granted the simple things in life that so many people had taken away from them when the stupid uranium fused and the bomb exploded. -and how many people who died that day that didnt know the Lord.

then just know i was listening to the bbc and there was the report about the 100coal miners that were trapped and the riots that've been happening and even the whole nasa incident. it made me realise how weak we are on our own and how much we need the Lord. really, need the Lord.

guess the frailty of human life is something we can never understand. but He wired us in a such a way that we cannot function without Him- theres a God-shaped hole in all of us, and its a void only He can fill.

2cor5:17 but in all things, joy! a new creation, a void that only He can fill (: