i've just killed something! man. the story goes like this:

i was going to bathe and i wasnt wearing my specs so i went into the shower and i saw this strange looking beige thingy on the wall, and SO cos im half-blind without my specs i took a closer look- then i screamed SO LOUDLY. it was a freaking lizard! then i tried using the shower to try and drown it and obviously it didnt work but i wasnt really thinking straight so i took the new superheavy shokubutsu shower bottle that my grandma bought and dropped it on the lizard- twice. i feel so evil! and i didnt dare pick up its dead body even with tissue so i erm wore my grandma's plastic gloves that she uses for dyeing her hair. eep. i am such a scaredy cat i cant stand myself. argh i cant even kill a lizard without feeling guilty. whos son/daughter/brother/sister did i kill? sob

haha i have very many things to pray for.

1. faith in God and strong belief in the power of prayer
2. for strength in daily life
3. for courage!
4. for much wisdom