met jonglong yest hahhaha we ran round from shop to shop trying to look for her dance pants. silly girl. hahahha i was so super tired from the shopping activities of the past few days i wanted to just sit at home. but FOR THE LOVE OF FRIENDS, i went. hahahha.

i think its really amazing how our friendship has grown so much from when we first met. haha. back in sc she was the crazy prefect, i was the ankle-socks girl and everytime there were spotchecks she always let me go. hahahah. but being in Bethany together gives our friendship new dimension. being able to grow together and speak of the Lord is something that im really learning not to take for granted. (: so hugs dear i love you!

went to mok's place at night, i was about to post photos but just go to uni's it's all there. hahah.

i did alot of thinking after nice josh sent me back at 120km/hr. i read proverbs30 and 31, and two verses stood out to me.

"every word of God is pure,
He is a shield to those who put their trust in Him." -proverbs30:5

"charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting,
but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." -proverbs31:30 (NIV)

He is a shield to those who put their trust in Him. it seems like such an easy truth but its so hard to fathom. how do you learn to place your whole life into His hands? i think ive been living for myself too much. everything i do, i do for myself. i thought back on the past week or so and i asked myself what ive done for the Lord. sadly, i came up with almost nothing.

i first read proverbs31:30 in sec3 when mandy wrote a card to me and said im her example of proverbs31:30. HAHHA. i almost fainted. i know i am far from being a woman of God, but its something i never want to stop working towards. a woman who fears the Lord. being in uni can be a time of exponential growth. or it can be a time when you stumble and fall and never pick yourself up ever again. i have told myself umpteen times, that i will not be the one to stumble. i will not turn away. i will never leave my faith. but yet the reality of many taking that path is becoming more and more apparent to me. only through alot of watching and praying can you ensure that you remain grounded, steadfast in the faith.

i was even more shocked this morning when i picked up one of my older diaries and started reading. ooohhh my goodness. every page had about ten profanities and each page was rather small. but what disturbed me to the most about my horrific language and distasteful choice of words was that they were written when i was in sec3. in sec3 when i was serving in the cleaning up ministry, choir, sec3 when i was learning to live for the Lord, and yet i was capable of living a double life. i thought of the song 'wholehearted' when i was flipping through my diary.

Lord i want you to know
that this double life is through
and everything, all of me
im giving to You.

with my whole heart,
im gonna love You.
and with my whole life
im gonna live it for you.
take my heart, every secret part
im wholehearted in love with You.

and im thankful that He has taught me to bite my tongue and taught me the principles of colossians4:6. "let your speech always be with grace, seasoned with salt..." haha. i have to learn the deeper meanings of these principles but at least the basic grounds of refraining from using atrocious language are about 80% covered (i hope). haha.

there are so many principles from the Word of God that i have yet to learn. and i know im capable of being easily distracted, of allowing the sparkling things of this world to distract me from the one, true light. but well, with much watching and praying. (:

so those are my thoughts of yesterday and today. (: crim law assignment is out! time to ask for another measure of strength :/