today has been a good week. (:

spent time with crystal, got to eat at the line with cherie cos her mommy so sweetly invited me (: haha. watched law people play poker, and witnessed the scariest, most exciting last round of poker, where sam lost 12bucks to junqiang. played blockus many times over, with joan going "chill guys, its just a game!" cos we were all being mad and competitive. hahaha. i have been a helpline for emo people many times over this past week. hehe. glad to be of service! hahahaha. but im not emo, YAYE :D just got back from weijun's birthday thingy. it started raining at seven so all the guys just stood in the rain and barbequed while the girls sat in the shelter eating cupcakes and waiting for the food to be ready. hahaha. and good, we've settled on a day for our class gathering, and for the first time in a long time im gonna be able to go cos i made jin plan it around me. mwahaha.

*out of point: i heard 'hey there delilah' three times in the car today. and im listening to it the fourth time on itunes. haha.

have done some self-reflection too. you know how sometimes you see so many things wrong with this world and you wantwantwant to change it? this past week, ive been faced with a few things that i would love to change. if i had the power to zap it all right, i'd do it. but i dont. and im learning, that the only thing left to do is to pray. today, i read the story of how abram made his wife sarai pretend to be his sister before the pharoah so that he could preserve his own life. he fled from the promised land of canaan because of a famine in the land. he didnt trust God enough to believe that the Lord would provide in His time. but despite abram's disobedience, God still stood by his servant, and plagued pharoah's household for abram's folly. and its a wonderful, comforting thought to know that the Lord is right there beside you, and He'll never let you go.

from conversations ive had with some of my friends, ive concluded that we've arrived at the stage in life when you begin to question what the meaning of life is. you begin to wonder how everything came into being, why life is so unsettled, and oftentimes tragic. and then you wonder if there really is a God. there are two possible outcomes:

1. you start looking. you start asking questions, you start seeking, you start reading, and most importantly, you start praying. and through all this your faith is strengthened and your relationship with the Lord renewed.
2. you drfit away, and you eventually give up.

sometimes i wish i could take things into my own hands and zap everyone's heart back into being right with God (including my own sometimes). but thats not something i can do, and i know, the answer is simply, prayer. and i hope you know that i will be praying.

now, i am tired. my brain is wonky! im going to crawl under my lovely down blanket and sleep, till tomorrow..good night world. (: