one tree hill goes like this:

bad guy + bad girl = couple
good guy + good girl = best friends

bad guy and bad girl break up. bad guy likes good girl. good girl stupidly likes him back.
good guy stupidly likes bad girl. bad girl doesnt like him at first. then loses him to her best friend (who isnt very good either.)
hahahaha. melodrama. i wish good guy and good girl would just end up together. and i like the good girl! her name is bethany joy :D ahahha. thats what im going to name my daughter.

ive been thinking.. this is how my life is. (its an ANALOGY)
youre shopping online.
and you see this perfect little black dress youve been looking for, for like. FOREVER.
and its cheap, too.
its perfect, down to the little sequins on the neckline and the flare of the skirt.
so you order it.
and at first theres no size cos someones already ordered it.
but later that someone gives it up, and so you get to order it (after like. maybe a few months.)
so, you order it.
and you pay a deposit for it.
(the rule of the company is: if you dont like the dress, you can return it. but you lose the deposit. if you like it, you pay the full amount.)
and you wait.
and you wait.
and you wait.
the package with your perfect little dress arrives.
you step into it to try it on.
but theres something wrong.
the back looks funny.
the flare of the skirt makes you look fat.
the sequins pop out in a weird way.
and you deliberate.
should you return the dress and lose the deposit?
or do you pay the amount in full and live with the dress that doesnt sit so well with you.

i bet youre all lost now. hahahhaha. nobody is ever gonna figure that out. dont ask me, i wont tell. hahahaha.