some days are just not yours.

so anw, the past few weeks have left me with much to think about.
since 2008 started, everythings just been a whirlwind of activities which hasnt left me with much room to breathe.
once the new year began i was packed and ready to fly to hanoi, trek up and down mountains, kayak and what not.
when i got back i was hurled into the first day of school, in the most rude and abrupt fashion i must say when i realised i forgot to re-set my phone timing to singapore time and was half an hour late for my first equity seminar.
6 weeks 'probation' in resonance.
realising that all my tutorials are twice as long as they used to be.
spending 20hours preparing for one public law seminar.
reading through all the materials at crazy speed.
and a myriad of other things.

and at the end of it all, everything is changing around me and my world is spinning half the time.
but we re-sung a song at youth choir today that reminded me. really, reminded me-

all the world is longing,
to know security.
all the world is listening,
trying to hear words they can believe.

but there is only One voice
calling us by name
One truth we can hold onto;
forever, He remains the same.

oh, i want you to know
that God's love never changes
His love never fails.
when the world is shaken,
we can put our faith in knowing that His love will never change.

oh, i want you to see,
that God's love never changes.

following the Lord is no easy task, thats why its called the narrow way.
and sometimes i think like a spoilt child.
THAT, is what i want. why cant i have it. i want it, NOW.
but then i remember that i am to love Him above everything. every item, every activity, every person, every -everything.
this, is why they call it the narrow way.
Him above every- everything.