heh ok i've just celebrated my official sixteenth dateless valentines day two days ago :D how sad is that man! heh ok im just kidding (: i was evil this year and didnt do anything for anyone so AW thank you for all the sweet people that gave me stuff (: all the days leading up to valentines day like daily devotionals were ALL on that subject and everything and though it sounds terribly cliche counting the number of times i've heard it from people who really mean it and from people who say it just to make themselves feel better that they dont have the 'significantotherhalf' as referred to by mr sum in the course of the past week He really is the basic foundation, of love. if He didnt love the way He did there really would be no reason to love the unlovely, unadorable, uncute, unfun, just UN people and its something really that all of us are guilty of, judging people and giving downright condemnation when we have absolutely no right to. this hugeeee problem is becoming significantly enlarged when i go to school each day cos i know i know how much He wants me to love the UNpeople just like He loves all the UNpeople which is everyone according to His standards and it just amazes me that Him being all Holy and perfect and just.. whole would take the time off to be with me each day, to comfort my fears, to wipe away my tears and to just hold my hand and carry me when i feel like i cant carry on.
some people are easy to love and all but everyeveryevery time i find myself back to square one in dealing with this constantly recurring problem of judging and loving selectively i always remember the first verse of by this they will know 'if we only love the lovely, and those we call our own, or if we give expecting something in return. ' if we do all these, what makes us different in the world's eyes? where is the proof that we belong to Christ?
Who Jesus is.
by this they will know,
that we are HIS
IF we give of ourselves, as He gave Himself for us,
by this they will know Him-
they'll know Jesus by our love.
He has no voice to speak but ours. He has no hands to touch but ours. He has no feet to walk but ours. and it really is a challenge to remind myself of that day by day cos the moment i step into the school day i get so caught up in everything and just start running on automode and my momentary life's goals just seem to be how to get to the next lecture by the fastest, shortest way and avoid getting murdered by daniel khor and when i chiong for chinese test, haiyo it knocks all the breath out of me its total madness in school nowadays cos i now go to school 24/6 which is really qte bad heh and i see rie and joel 24/7 hm seeing rie is good but joel? nah heh ok kidding but im just vvvvvv thankful to have people to walk with me and all heh now its like power of three joel is the dajie and both of us are the tiny ones which is really qte amusing and im beginning to see this really great BIG picture in my mind where i can see His hand in many of the little things that happen (:
heh i was showering the other day and i suddenly thought of this. like how God's plan is this great biiiiiiiiiiiiiiggggggg million gazillion piece jigsaw and like how my life is like one piece of it? and like just say its a picture of a tree and the tree has fruits of if my piece happens to be part of the fruit its gonna be a different color [meaning not green la] and if i sit on my butt and complain about why my piece is red and not green like everyone elses and never hand Him that piece to fit in, its not gonna be a perfect picture. ok heh MAYBE im the only one that understands what i've been babbling about in the past few lines? but WHO CARES but what i've been trying to say is that whatever comes, we should, and must learn to accept the lot that He gives cos some way, somehow theres this great biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig picture that i cant see (:
in my heart i know Your plan is so much bigger, but this small part is all that i can see. but i believe You havent left me here to wander, still i cant help but ponder where You're leading me- but You know why this road, why this way and this load, You know how far i must go till i see till i know why this road (:
i am SO gonna survive jc life heh now im all ready in my battle gear with the belt of truth shield of faith sword of the Spirit, helmet of salvation, sandals [gospel of peace] yaye i will attack stupid insidious satan cos He has promised, truth will trail, He will PREVAIL (:
i still cannot forget the super cool banner that we did at ujin's house yesterday HAHA the power of three! both our banners have verses on them wahaha super cool heh the games store one has like ephesians6:16 about taking the shield of faith to quench the fiery DARTS of the wicked one which is super cool cos its a dart game :D heh yayeee and i just cannot get over the richness of just about anyone in ac ujin's house is like WAYYYYYYYYYYY bigger than anyones house i've seen and i thought manda's house was big heh but anyway i love our banners i love sbone and i love ac :D
be still my soul, the Lord is on Your side. bear patiently the cross of grief or pain. leave to Your God to water and provide.
in every change, He faithful will remain (:
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