walking on Sonshine!

little by little one step at a time, He's changing my heart and renewing my mind (: teaching me how to be patient and kind little by little one step at a time! (:

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

love song for a Savior

In open fields of wild flowers
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language

Someday she'll understand
the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,


"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,

"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"

It seems too easy to call you "Savior",
Not close enough to call you "God"
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion

"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"
"I want to fall in love with You"


its been clearly evident to me that i've pushed Him away from me and filled my life up with the things that dont matter, in the end. studies, people, everything else but Him. and sometimes it really gets discouraging when i, knowingly choose to turn away from what i know is right. its like this big glass bottle, God is the huge rock of salvation, and He should always have the preeminence and be the center of each of our lives. other things like studies, friends, family, are sand. if you place the rock in then poar in the sand, theres lots of room for everyone, and your life has a strong, firm foundation. but if you poar sand into the bottle and then try to fit the rock in, it just doesnt work. thats how my life has been the past few months. maybe its the transition from jc life, maybe its something else. but i know one thing's for sure, those were my choices and no one else's.

this road is winding, narrow and steep. and i cant keep walking with frozen feet. my spirit is not willing, heart as cold as ice, thaw out my convictions, the passion's left my life. and i dont wanna be a flame,wanna be a RAGING FIRE, tired of my will my way, Your calling's higher

and i know its time that i stopped running from the truth, so i'll stand here still, until im filled- i wanna be moved.

john21:7 i want to be like peter, looking to Jesus, and swimming towards Him, forsaking all else. peter was human, peter failed, he denied Jesus three times [which i pray i will never do] but he believed Jesus could forgive him, and i do too.

love keeps lifting me higher, closer to Him.