i've been doing alot of thinking lately. i guess thats what happens when you study too much haha. but as in i've been doing alot of SERIOUS thinking as in about life and stuff. the last time i was in such a mode i think was about a month after i received my o level results last year. and its sort of like a hmmmmmmmmmm contemplative mood when i just sit down and wonder what my life is about. and i know the answer. i know what He put me here for, maybe not the specific plan but the generic one that we were all meant to fulfil- to be beacons of light that shine in a dark place. some days i wonder when everything is going to end and it's hard but im trying. Lord i believe, help my unbelief. and i've been observing alot of people lately [haha i love to do that] and i always wonder what goes beyond the way they look and behave on the outside and whats really inside. and i guess i'll never know haha so i've concluded its too dangerous to trust a guy with your heart so im adopting a kid but im not getting married haha and right now most of my friends seem to concur.

we had the bacclaureate service today and i wasnt veryvery sad but well maybe just a little. i guess i'll miss the familiarity and all the memories i've had but somehow im really glad to be moving on, cos i cant wait to see what He has in store for me ;)and i suppose what lance said is true, after today we'll no longer exist as 2sb1 class of 2005 but what is meant to stay, will- if you hold on to it. and in a way im glad cos i feel like im moving into a new chapter of my life with new people [and the old but very good ones i know will stay ;}] and the next 38 days are gonna be really hard but if i would open my eyes and learn and be thankful for every person He brings my way to teach me new lessons and to open my eyes to the more important things of this world.

Collapsing was much softer
Still falling always hurt
Only after sensing your love
For always ever burned
You justified my folly
My affluent disguise
Removed revealing nothing
Yet nothing unforgiven lies
Unforgiven lies

No one loves me like you
No one loves me the way you do
No one loves me like you
No one loves me the way, the way that you do

To touch the rose unfearful
Is to meet the thorn
And pierce the heart's emotion
And feel the emptiness no more
Emptiness no more

Took some time to realize I've fallen

every point of view has another angle, and every angle has it's merit but it all comes down to faith- thats the way i see it. (: