im in bangkok! haha i shopped myself crazy yesterday haha with S$220 or so i bought 12 shirts, 4 skirts, 2 bags, about five pairs of earrings, 1 pair of slippers and some pin thing. ahaha bangkok seriously stretches your dollar and i almost died shopping with crystal heh

but what i remember about yesterday was so much more than the shopping [which was undeniably good haha], but this was better. went to ECB with the family since it was sunday and the message was really, really good. it was about Lordship and about learning to build your faith on a strong foundation that wont shake even when the storms of life blow. text was matt7:21-23 and luke6. and it really, really reminded me that theres no such thing as partial obedience or situational obedience cos thats not obedience at all- its convenience. and remembering that Jesus is either Lord OF all or not Lord AT all. and i choose the first (:

what really stuck i guess was the parallel the pastor drew with the story of ivan and the great and with our daily walks with the Lord. haha its quite funny really but the gist of it was that ivan the great wanted to marry some greek princess or smth and he had to be baptised with all his soldiers into the greek orthodox church before he could marry her. BUT the rule was that warriors could not be part of that religion. so, the solution was that while they were being immersed into the water and baptised the would all hold their sword out of the water. haha. sounds familiar doesnt it? that we all have these little bits of our lives that we simply refuse to surrender and we hold it above the water and cling onto it. history calls it the unbaptised arm. in our context theres no euphemism, its just disobedience.

and its so clear and it stares us in the face, but more often than not we choose to ignore it. so my prayer for the next year is that i learn to trust so much more and that i learn to surrender every part into those knowing hands and rest in those everlasting arms (: and youth conf! shout for joy (:

here's my heart, mold it.
here's my mind, transform it.
here's my will, conform it-
to Yours, to Yours, o Lord.