i will try and consolidate my thoughts so i can do my quiet time and sleep before eleven. lest i feel like falling asleep during torts tutorial tmr haha

my thoughts were turned back to this month's memory passage on the way home:

"14 for this reason i bow my knees to the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ.

15 from whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named,

16 that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory to be strengthened with might through His Spirit in the inner man,

17 that Christ would dwell in your hearts through faith; that you, being rooted and grounded in love

18 may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height-

19 to know the love of Christ that passes knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God."

-ephesians3:14-19

to know the love of Christ that passes knowledge, and to be filled with ALL THE FULLNESS OF GOD. i wonder what that really means. fullness of God. shangjun just told me north korea did a nuclear test. okay, i am out of touch with the news but thats not the point. its a horrific thought. nuclear TEST?! seriously. who does a nuclear test when the entire world is against you and it does nothing but harm. on the way home on bus 93 when i passed the bishan area, there was quite a bad accident and the motorcyclist was just lying on the floor. scary. and im reminded again of the importance of living the way He wants me to. the end is coming, soon. maybe not in our generation, but soon.

when i met kenneth at six today, he was sharing with me about the importance of knowing God's direction in your life. and ALWAYS ensure that your heart is ready to make any decision, no matter how hard it may be, to follow the Lord and do His will. he shared with me from ezekial24:15-27, where God allowed ezekial's wife to pass on and told him not to mourn the loss of his wife whom he described as 'the desire' of ezekial's eyes in verse16. 'sigh in silence, make no mourning for the dead...' verse17. what if God took away the person you loved the most? or a possession that was dear to your heart? would you obey His voice? or would you turn away.

thats not a question i can answer with a definite 'yes' yet. but its something i always want to work towards. that in the face of adversity, my faith would triumph. that when things go haywire, God will be the peace that calms the storm.

things change, plans fail.
you look for love on a grandeur scale
storms rise, hopes fade
and you place your bets on another day
when the going gets tough
when the ride's too rough
when you're just not sure enough-
Jesus will still be there.

i was singing very loudly on the way home from church. haha. the long walks from church to the busstops are extremely enjoyable at night. haha maybe its cos you can stop and smell and flowers and you dont have to rush from place to place trying to escape the haze and the unbearable heat. stop and smell the flowers. haha lets watch the flowers grow. (: