every new beginning, is some beginning's end.

i have been thinking on psalm1..
ive done alot of things this week, ive met up with alot of people,
but the other day i was thinking.. i cant remember what ive been doing for the past two months. i mean yea ive had alot of fun, preparing for law camp, going for dry runs, meeting up with people ive not seen for the longest time. ive gone for late night suppers, random talks in the park, drives at insane speeds. ive done alot of things, but i cant remember all of them. and not that i remember SOME, i really cant remember ALL of them. unless i sit down for an hour and wrack my brains. i cant even remember what i did last week.

long mrt trips to the east and west of singapore have given me alot of time to think. and ive figured im not quite sure what i want to do with my life. i read proverbs2 again. i want to understand the fear of the Lord, and i want to find the knowledge of God. but if you read verses1-4, there are so many pre-conditions that i have yet to fulfil. and am a long, long way from fulfilling. and i need to keep my head and my heart focused, but i dont seem to be doing that all too well. cos i want my life to mean something. something more than it does now.