how refreshing to know You dont need me,
how amazing to find that You want me.

at one extreme, its amazing how the human heart finds replacements for its loves. love one and love another the same. snap quick switch and its like the past never happened. its like buying clothes. you blow 70bucks on a top and think 'im gonna wear it to death and never buy anything else for the next 6months' [see wenns -ahem- three-digit priced top -ahem] and how many times have people seen you in it? twice. and two weeks later youre caught shopping at zara again.

our society has become a throw-away society. this reminds me of BATA- buy and throw away. thats what we do. buy, and throw away. theres no concept of real love. no faithfulness. no commitment. no perseverance. its try a little and if its too hard, you g-i-v-e u-p.

"i give up"

sound familiar?

there is a fine, fine line between "i give up" and things that are out of your control.
because some things just are, out of reach. and it will not be because you haven't tried hard enough, but because some things are just out of your control. [see mich]

i dont think ive been influenced by our society's mindset that much. [unless we're talking about things like getting up at 7am to go running. that i admit i give up, and applaud myself for the occassional success. hurhur.] and ive learnt to try, try, try to the point when i know ive done all i could, and the rest is in His hands.

and to my mind, the hardest word in the English dictionary is the word "T-R-U-S-T."
a five-letter word. how hard is that? T-R-U-S-T.
but yet i have to tell myself time and time and time again.
ive done all i could, trust.
trust. trust. trust.