YAYE TRIAL ADVO IS OVER. :D
i am absolutely convinced that mr tan ju peat was the killer.
stupid. who said the prosecution had no case.

today left me with many things to think about.

haha anw, i realised that many people probably look at me and think im ms airy-fairy with no brain and a whole load of Christian ideals. but well. if you think thats me, you probably dont know me very well.

if you've spoken to me a few times, you've probably realised that i usually dont know whats going on when my friends spout jokes with sexual innuendos, or when a remark is made, i probably dont get it till about ten mins later. haha. and i know all my good friends [hurhur] think its a good thing for me to know all these things cos im gonna be 'surrounded' by it in the future, especially when i enter the working world. but ive come to realise that these things get into your head. like when someone says a hokkien swear word, when i find out the meaning, it stays in my vocabulary. and one day, i might be tempted to use it, and it may just come out of my mouth without me realising it. so its not that im trying to stay in my bubble or im being extreme or anything like that. its just because i find it hard enough as it is to pursue holiness, truth and purity. i find it hard enough as it is to walk with the Lord without being distracted by the things of life. and i dont need to have more problems i need to overcome. and to my mind, as auntie says

"Do not let your adornment be merely outward
arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel
rather let it be the hidden person of the heart,
with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit,
which is very precious in the sight of God."
1 Peter 3:3-4

haha. another thing on that. i know i shriek alot. i know i laugh at everything and anything. and i generally make alot of noise. but see, i am in the process of cultivating a gentle and quiet spirit on the OUTSIDE. hurhur. that is especially hard for me. but i think i have greater progress of this principle on the inside. heart. hahahha.

just a few days ago, i was thinking about how sad i felt cos things now, are just different.
and my thoughts were turned back to the Lord. (see previous post!)
and today, something made me realise how incredibly blessed i am.
and bad things in life just..happen.
and when they do?
its for you to deal with it.
or for you to let Him deal with it.

there's something that ive been praying about.
but i think i have not been consistent with this prayer.
somehow i think i need an answer.
but maybe it isnt time.

haha. i just looked up and saw uni's 'princess' balloon floating around. hurhur.
another reminder of how incredibly blessed i am.

i like what jus wrote. deliberately choose Him. be humble,
and trust. (: