you know how sometimes you sleep, and you dream. and everything is okay. then you wake up, and its back to reality. and reality tells you its not okay, and you want to cry but youre so tired, so you cant.

so i look for Him. ive realised that new passages must always surface, new promises get me through another day.

Psalm 38

v9 Lord, all my desire is before You;
and my sighing is not hidden from You

v10 my heart pants, my strength fails me;
as for the light of my eyes, it also has gone from me

v15 For in You, o Lord, i hope,
You will hear, o Lord my God.

v17 For i am ready to fall, and my sorrow is continually before me.

v21 Do not forsake me, o Lord
o my God, be not far from me!

v22 make haste to help me,
o Lord of my salvation.

Psalm 39

v4 Lord, make me to know my end,
And what is the measure of my days,
that i may know how frail I am.

v7 and now, Lord, what do i wait for?
my hope is in You.

in the past week or so ive read job, jeremiah, lamentations, esther.
and the psalms, of course. all these psalms of David were written in the depths of distress when he fled for his life. and of course, thats huge compared to what little nonsense we all go through in life. but right now, it seems like the world.

pastor mitch says it gets better.

Psalm 40:1-3

"I waited patiently for the Lord;
and He inclined to me,
and heard my cry

He also brought me up out of a horrible pit
out of the miry clay,
and set my feet upon a rock,
and established my steps.

He has put a new song in my mouth-
Praise to our God;
many will see it and fear,
and will trust in the Lord."

in the pit, all you see are the four walls around you. when you stand on His grace and the foundation of Christ (on Christ the solid rock i stand, all other ground is sinking sand. how could i forget?) He establishes your steps, and you see it all in greater clarity. and when your faith is tested you realise how small it actually is. if you faint in the day of adversity, your strength is small. then you get up, and you fix your eyes on Him.