life's like this really huuuuuuge sinusoidal wave that neverends :'( jc life just gets tougher and tougher and tougher each day.. dont get me wrong i love sbone :D but theres increasingly more issues to deal with and sometimes it really, REALLY gets to me. but i knowwwwwww i know no temptation has overtaken me except that which is common to man [2cor10:13] but yes i still wanna say rie i love you ALOT and thank you for always being there to listen to my rubbish heh and we just give each other our rubbish so yes thanks always to Him who knows what i need, and who i need (:

up till now i've had alot of fun with sbone and heh its all cos of them that i've spent i dunno how much on movies already heh including yesterdays movie marathon which seriously made my eyes die after that heh we're planning to write this letter to the principal which is like heh nobody can leave sbone neither can anyone leave the class after the results are out heh which is the most SPASTICATED thing i've ever done but i love sbone and for the sake of us, i'll do it (:

im reading a VERY strange but nice book now heh 'i kissed dating goodbye' heh jia read it rie read it and rie is ok WAS forcing me to read it but now im reading it, it really makes sense (: i mean it isnt an anti-boyfriend/girlfriend book but it reminds alot that no matter the relationship it shd always, always be centred on Him and Him alone (:

i just finished reading my brother's book on jim elliot heh which is a really simplified version but yea it managed to give me a very quick overview of the realllllll tough life of a missionary and all. and seriously now i dont know if i can ever take the rough life of a missionary heh seeing the guniang i am and all, but i know that hopes and dreams can come true- if its part of His plan (: and reading the story of jim elliot and elisabeth elliot, it really struck me that hey now THAT is like true love and that is the love which will never ever take their individual focus away from Christ. i mean seriously they waitedm FIVE years, saw each other like once a year and still loved each other despite. now THAT is love and amazing love at that (:

and i know somehow, someway He's got a great big plan for me and i love Him so much for that (:

sometimes i really cannot see the plan which He has for me and i go into the whywhywhy mode, sit on my butt and be sad :'( but yesssss ben says must trust yes must trust, must be a light yes must be a light (: no matter the outcome :D

all that i am, all that i could ever hope to be, i owe it all to You (:

mustkeeptrustingkeeponswimmin' (: