the concerts were really great and YES really a reason to give thanks for His amazing grace in keeping us all in tune and keeping the cds from deciding to slip a beat (:

heh and alot of rubbish justin tawsf and leow tried to cheat me into.. and trying to find a nice backpack and ending up wanting to buy alot of other irrelevant stuff. and missing the chance to watching the passion cos of the horrible whatever that made me sleep the whole of friday but really amidst the fun and well half being sick, managed to read through the three out of the four accounts of the gospels, not done with mark yet which i will finish tonight! and appreciating so much more what it meant for Him to say "Father, FORGIVE them.." I wont let you sink, no, I forgive you.

i've learnt my fair share of lessons through this easter and it really is a challenge to place all i've learnt into practice. the kind of things that've happened so far are just plain crap and it gets so extremely frustrating when i know i should shutup and i cant. im just really confused cos i KNOW we were meant to live victorious God-centred lives which encompass Him in ever aspect and though i know my parents believe well, sometimes i really wonder what the extent of their conviction is. it just hurts when they tell me things that really just make my heart go alllllllllllllllll the way down. and everytime i talk to them about such stuff i always end up crying sometimes i yell when they yell sometimes i just sit there and cry cos seriously theres just no other way for me to take it and after that i just get so confused i cant think straight.

just alot of things to deal with all at once but i have to learn. i want to follow Christ and i want to STAND ON MY FAITH. im not gonna give it up and whenever i feel like my will and heart are gonna shatter into pieces i mustttt remember we were meant to be victorious and i will not give up (: Christ the Lord is risen today, Alleluia (:

that horrible feeling has yet to go away i've a million things to think about and im not done studying gp bleh im gonna die but nvm if i get everything sorted out, its gonna be worth it (: