im scared to death about the a's. just looked at my countdown board thingy and 22 days looks like an awfully, awfully short time. but i guess thats when i really learn what it means to wait on the Lord and learn to trust Him. alot of things have happened recently its like this whole whirlwind of events and some days i really feel like i havent an ounce of strength to carry on and like im just gonna die in this long, draggy, arduous process. then i remember His promises. i remember how He brought me thru the o's, how He taught me to be strong when relationships broke apart and friendships failed, how He forgave me and kept me and never let go of me even when the doubts overflowed and stupid shows scared the living daylights out of me [classic examples: hide and seek i was terrified that i'd get up at 2.07am. house of wax i was scared to death that someone would cut of my finger].

the a's look terribly unfriendly now but. im learning to rest in all that He is to me and learning to be strong amidst all the trials im gonna have to deal with over the next 30+ days.

that my trust may be in the Lord, and no one else. (: