im very greatly encouraged now ;) haha i think this really is the Lord's way of teaching me to trust Him, of reminding me "HELLO I SHOULD BE THE CENTRE" and im really thankful for that D grade now, actually. (:

haha a few things helped put things into perspective though, and im really thankful for each and every one (:

1. i think it really helped in the immediate aftermath of getting back my case summary [im making it sound like a disaster! haha] to turn back to the Lord and trust. i wrote down psalm16:9 in my journal [a.k.a little book of prayer and sanity]

"i have set the Lord always before me;
because He is at my right hand, i shall not be moved."

and it was really a great reminder to me to learn to hold fast, and to trust even though i was still feeling veryvery sad

2. xinjie trying to comfort me whilst i was being out loud and whiney and horrified and AHHHbangmyheadanddie about my D grade during the torts lecture. and all the other people that were so sweet and comforting when i was on the verge of sobbing my heart out [AHAH oh fine im exaggerating] haha im just thankful i have friends who look out for me and stuff :) haha THANK YOU mwas for surviving me and my nonsense

3. encouraging msges from my darling cherry tree and from jon who was trying to IRRITATE ME about how joakim gomez got kicked out of singapore idol. but anw haha i was reminded- thank You Lord for my special friends (:

4. went to church and spoke with kenneth for abit. he shared with me from Mark6,7 about how Jesus taught his disciples and showed them signs and wonders and yet they lacked the understanding to believe in the power of God. haha he was telling me to not be discouraged by the horrific grade, haha he told me about how all his message outlines come back bleeding from red ink marks after Pastor checks them haha. and that was an encouragement to me to learn from all the mistakes [which i must say were pretty bad in retrospect and i do deserve that D], and to PERSEVERE ;)

5. housewarming/ comm meeting at gerald and elaine's new house! haha i thought the short msg Pastor Mitch gave was really apt as i spent time talking with yiyong, jon and huimin about how sucky school can be. haha i was really encouraged, how Christ is the centre of everything, and i am reminded that im not alone! am not alone (:

the reason we sing,
the reason we lift our voice
is more than just making harmony
the reason we sing,
is to praise the One Who gave His Son to be
the reason we sing.

(: i need to get back to my closed memo now *crosses fingers* thou shalt remember to pray for me! haha no more Ds for me haha but even if i still get D's its okay. D FOR DISTINCTION.AHAHAH nah its okay, the Lord sees the heart (: