everyday i pray for the strength to carry on. everyday i pray for wisdom and the courage to face what is in front of me. everyday i ask to be able to make decisions that are right. are they? sometimes i wonder. i look at the circumstances in my life and i wonder what the Lord has for me to learn through this. is it to learn sufficiency in Him? is it to learn to wait for His beautiful timing. is it a sign that i should be guided in a particular direction? or do i just need to go through a little hurt/trial in order to become stronger in faith and more effective as a witness for Him. i dont know you know. somedays, i dont know what He has for me to learn.

the stuff of earth competes for the allegiance i owe only to the Giver of all good things.

i know things shouldnt bother me the way they do, but they do. i know its stupid to be struggling, but i am. and thats when i know i need Him so much more. (: