the only few things that are keeping me alive:
1. Reading the Lord's Word in the morning
2. my constant 'omigosh i cant do this anymore God please help me' prayers every five mins
3. talking about retarded things with all my random friends online
4. online shopping
5. my mommy giving me massages cos my back hurts like MAD.
6. 3minute telephone conversations with thea hahaha and 'ok im going back to licenses now just remember we do it for God'
7. FOOD.
8. FOOD
9. and more food. (island ice cream, island mudpie, waffles and crackers about suffice)
10. knowing its going to be over in a few more DAYS [dont tell me about weeks. its DAYS.]

but i am thankful that i am studying property and company. i still remember the feeling, a year or so ago, when my dad banged on my door at 12midnight cos he had just checked the results of my nus application. i was half asleep, but i laughed to myself and said a prayer of thanks. i am thankful that He has brought me so far. and i was just thinking, WHAT IF i dont do well enough to go on exchange. or what if something happens along the way that doesnt allow me to go on exchange. will i still be thankful. and i think i will be. whatever happens. cos maybe i'd have hated it if i'd gone. or maybe something bad would've happened to me. i dont know, i dont see the future, only He does.

so now, i am still working my butt off, but i do it with the mindset that my God is in control. and i am gonna be okay. (:

on thursday, i was forced to go to carnivore [i didnt even eat half my moneys worth] cos my dear brother wanted to eat there (hurhur.) four hundred and thirty five bucks worth of meat. eeep. t chen kee would love this place. people walk around with long, sharp whatchamacallits with CHUNKS of meat on it. yikes.

anw, on the way there we passed orchard and MAN the lights are beautiful. the decorations are beautiful and CHRISTMAS IS ALMOST HERE. i especially love the decorations at tangs. (: every year, Christmas awes me. its meaning, and everything it means to us poor little dots on earth. and every year, i am reminded of His goodness.

and everything is good (:
am really tired now. good night world.