today, i was greatly impacted by the msg Pastor gave us today.

the concept of "I AM WITH YOU." is something so few of us understand.
we know it, in our heads. not in our hearts.
"I am with you" means
He is God of my life.
God of my feelings.
God of my joys.
God of my pain.
God of my studies.
God of my choice.
God of my walking.
God of my voice.

and when He says, "I am with you", i will not fear.
i look at company and property and the stacks of revision i need to finish and i remember "I am with you."
its not merely a concept. its a promise. yesterday, today and forever.

it never ceases, never fails.
the sky is the limit, Pastor said.
the Lord will bring you to such great heights you will fulfil all the potential He created in you.

"I am with you."

during ypg, kenneth challenged us to look back, to reflect. how things have changed this past year. and i say this not with regret or any tinge of sadness. for i know i have grown stronger, i have learnt many lessons. lessons of grace, of trust, of obedience. though not fully learnt lessons, but im still learning (:

the year started out like normal. rush into school for all the 9am lessons. crim, legal theory, lawr, contract. contract was still my favorite lesson (tutorial) cos chinty is so funny. haha. he says the funniest things. crim was funny too with kumar making all his strange jokes. hur but nuh-uh not my favorite cos i got a C+ from crim.
barely a few weeks into school rahmen, josh, val and i flew off to bangkok. wheee! for our alsa conference (: which was hurm. an extremely fulfilling shopping trip. hahahah.
came back, starting dying while catching up with school work,
watching pageant rehearsals, laughing at the ridiculous outfits they all had to wear. hur. carpetthea.
examsexamsexamsstudystudystudy.
threemonthsbreak
junior camp! and the lovely kids.
law camp, and the not-so-lovely kids.
watching rag rehearsals
playplayplay...PASS DRIVING!! [the greatest achievement of my life.]
school starts again and the cycle repeats itself [though no alsa this time. hur. no flying to korea.]

but through this mad rush of things, i have learnt so much.
i have learnt to give, not expecting in return.
i have learnt to love, and to pray for.
i have learnt tolerance and grace. [hurm the grace one is being tested again now.]
i have learnt to -try- not to judge.
i have learnt that different people work by different systems and i need to approach each one differently.
i have learnt that everyone needs healing. whether they show it or not.
i have learnt that people are as different as different can be, and some you will never understand. only God knows what they really are thinking.
i have learnt that some people say mean things and shoot their mouths off because they have small egos and are easily hurt, even though you have done nothing to them. [see tort law- take your victim as you find them.] but still i refuse to be responsible for any damage, but i will not bear grudges cos grudges are very bad for you.
i have learnt to do everything heartily as to God and not to man.

but one thing i have yet to figure out. how am i supposed to deal with people i have lost all respect for? i cannot function with a person, without having respect for a person. the fact that i talk to you indicates that i regard you in some way. to people who have done ridiculous things, and acted in all manner of absurdity to which i am unable to comprehend how a normal, rational person could ever contemplate such an outoftheworld course of action, how am i to speak to you when where you stand in my eyes has fallen way beyond the depths of the earth.

for that, i do not yet have the answer to. i shall seek counsel soon. haha. after exams.

one last thing. God is also God of my clt results. (: whee!