since i was at city hall today, i decided to have a look at st andrew's cathedral (ive never been inside before). i walked around the outside of the cathedral, the little garden and pond before i entered the sanctuary. when i stepped in, there were about 6 or 7 people kneeling/bowing their heads in prayer. so i found myself a nice secluded corner and sat down. and there's something about cathedrals that always strike me. perhaps its the stained glass or maybe its the high ceiling, i cant quite figure what it is. but this cathedral was slightly different. right in the middle, at the front, was a cross. not the usual pretty huge one you see in most cathedrals (well, at least those ive been to haha), but a small one, its height perhaps the length of your arm.

i sat and looked at it for a long while before i closed my eyes to pray. i asked for forgiveness, i asked for healing, and i asked for hope. i asked for joy, i asked for perspective, and i asked for love. i no longer asked for the gift, but the Giver and completion in Him.

then i opened my Bible and read from Psalm 131

1 LORD, my heart is not haughty,
Nor my eyes lofty.
Neither do I concern myself with great matters,
Nor with things too profound for me.

2 Surely I have calmed and quieted my soul,
Like a weaned child with his mother;
Like a weaned child is my soul within me.

3 O Israel, hope in the LORD
From this time forth and forever.

so that's another lesson i learnt today. peace. (: