had udders ice cream with huangs last night and she was such a bimbs. i walked into the shop and pointed out the alcoholic and non-alcoholic ice cream to her. we agreed on ordering the baileys and lychee martini ice cream. halfway through our ice cream she asked me: rach, is this ice cream alcoholic?

i was so shocked i just stared at her for a good half minute. hahaha HUANGS YOU ARE A RETARD. we were actually enjoying our people watching view thru the glass panel of the shop, but jol was sadly distracted by the 'chui-chuiness' of the couple that was sitting at the table directly in front of the glass panel. i will not go into details, but needless to say it was a horrendous experience.

so i went home and spent the rest of the night reading proverbs1-3, (to clear away the inanity of the past few hours hahahaa no huangs i still love you) and the contents of proverbs 3 really struck me.

i am, by nature, a planner. (my best friend is a procrastinator, dont ask me how we get along). i plan my days and my life, i dont take risks, and i hate it when something/someone upsets my plans. so these two verses stood out to me-

Proverbs 3:25-26
"Do not be afraid of sudden terror,
Nor of trouble from the wicked when it comes;
For the LORD will be your confidence,
And will keep your foot from being caught."

i think a large part of the reason why im such a planner is cos i like to be in control of my life. i dont like things to catch me offguard when im not ready, when im weak. but this verse says it all- the Lord will be my confidence. the Lord will keep my foot from being caught. in the moments when i feel my life spiraling out of control, i must learn to let go, and let God be God.

the last few days ive had in sunny singapore have been wonderful. i have learnt over again the joy of giving (a lesson that i continually have to be reminded of time and again). i have learnt to appreciate the love i am surrounded by everyday. i have experienced anew the preciousness of the Lord Jesus being by my side.

this morning, the pastoral team came down to visit my grandad. it brought me great joy as i watched him respond to the gospel message as Pastor spoke to him and prayed with him. it truly is by God's grace and mercies that length of days and life has been added to him to allow him to come to the saving knowledge of the Lord Jesus Christ!

last friday at 3am my mom knocked furiously on my room door and told me that grandad was running a high fever and was being sent to the hospital. it took a long while for that to settle in cos i was half asleep. but when it hit me (and it hit me hard) that he's more than 80years old, and a fever could kill him, i prayed like i never prayed before. i have been talking to him about Christ and was in the process of arranging to visit him with the pastoral team, and so i prayed just for a few more days/weeks/months, just enough so i could do my best and leave the rest to Him. somehow i found sufficient peace to fall asleep again that night. when i made my way to the hospital in the early morning, i found that the fever had subsided (the doctors say it was just a chest infection).

if you were in such a desperate situation, prayed like you've never prayed before (to a God that you arent even sure exists), and things worked out exactly as you prayed, would you attribute to Him the glory He deserves?

sometimes i listen to my friends talk.
i have had someone tell me "thank you for praying for me. i know things in my life have been going so well because you have been praying for me."
if you know prayers work, why do you not believe?
i have had others tell me "im so thankful things worked out so well."
thankful to what, to Whom? why do you not believe?

i dont think it was a coincidence that my grandad became better so fast. i dont think its a coincidence that he was fully alert and awake when the pastors came down to visit him today. i think this is God hearing me and answering me because He is good. because He loves. because He never fails.