OH YAYE CAMP IS COMING!!! :D:D:D
im going kinda nuts now heh too excited laaaa heh i did cherie's hair for prom! -feels accomplished- and its nice so there ;p
hongkong was ok i guess but i feel so cheated cos all the shopping was yucky heh i also learnt that my mum is a ruthless bargainer i mean really she can slash the price from like 60 to 20 heh she has all the super tactics which i must attempt to absorb heh but anyway she forced me to bargain on my own cos her logic was what if i come with my friends one day and she doesnt come? then i'll get C-H-E-A-T-E-D i was like hm but anyway i attempted and saved two dollars O_________________o which is so pathetic but anyway (:(:
heh I MUST TELL EVERYONE WHAT MY BROTHER DID aiyo i tell you at the airport there was this sign with a glass beneath it NOT an empty space and that silly boy was all excited about getting ice cream from burger king that he thought it was an empty space and RAN RIGHT INTO IT aiyo i didnt know whether to laugh or to cry and when i got to him he couldnt force his words out and i was so horrified/terrified/mortified whatever and i almost fainted and died but thankfully he was ok (: i got extremely paranoid at night and kept going to his room to check on him but my mum says if nothing happens after 24 hours its fine so yes Lord, thank you (:
after his headonwiththeglass accident i was really scared that something would happen i dont know i was just.. scared. and then i wondered what life would be like without that twit. i mean really seriously i cant imagine it. if anything happened to my brother or my parents i think i would just die. on the plane with a very amusing episode of friends i started to wonder.. if something ever did happen to them, would i still be able to love God and trust Him? i mean i always thought my friends meant alot more to me than my family but i realised.. they dont. if anything happened to any of my friends im sure i'd be sad and hysterical or something but i wouldnt.. die. and i know the reality of life is such that no one can tell what lies round the corner and to be honest what with jc coming and all, im scared. i mean fullstop i know when trials come how much the importance of my faith is going to be so much more real and the much larger need for my faith to be applied, not that it isnt now but bah you know what i mean. i know the importance of giving the Lord first place in my life, its hard not to love Him after what He's done but its tough to love Him the MOST. thats what i gotta deal with now, its first place or no place. i'd choose first.
when you cant see His plan, when you cant trace His hand, trust His heart (:
if anything happens to anyone in the family i want to be able not to question. i want to say Lord, this is in your hands, and this is Yours. You gave us life, You have the right to take it away, to take comfort in knowing that when the time comes that i lose someone i love, i'd be comforted with the full assurance knowing that they're up there with Him, and happy. thats why im so worried about my grandmother now and i DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO -hides
ok this is getting a little morbid but just some thoughts. i hope none of it happens in the near future but yes Lord, first place, always.
its end defies my view;
teach me to take each step in faith
and leave the rest to You.
and leave the rest to You (:
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