"is anyone among you suffering? let him pray. is anyone cheerful? let him sing psalms." -james5:13

too many things have happened the past week and i think im just being too scared. im scared of EVERYTHING i just eurgh. and i know the only thing that will make me alot less chicken will be my faith in God. no one and i do mean NO ONE can calm my nerves before an interview, nor before getting my results or before doing anything dangerous or whatever that entails. when i say a prayer during those periods of intense nervousness and fear  it helps to calm me down and gives me just simple peace like that described in john14:27 well, SOMETIMES. other times i just get to scared and basically sit there, go through the 'what ifs' and freak myself out. and fear is one of the biggest things that i know i have to conquer cos if i dont its just gonna stop me from being an effective witness for Him and i just hate being afraid. really i do and sometimes i really wonder what on earth i should be so scared about. im protected and guided by One who loves me infinitely much and is with me everything step of the way. promising not only to carry my burdens but carry me when im too weary.

and im tired, scared but in no way ready to give up- cos i know i have an Almighty God who loves me yesterday, today, and forever (: