going through so much crap now even though promos are over and all theres pw and chinese to worry about and so much other stuff to do. and alot of times when i try to handle it with my own strength it just wearies me and makes me feel like giving up. and sometimes i wonder if i should stop fighting and save myself the worries and the burdens and all that but then i realise thats not what i want. read psalm62 and it really is a beautiful psalm on an appeal to people to trust God and the reaffirmation that He really is sovereign, He really is above all (: was reading daniel too haha im up till chapter9 now and it really is a tough book to understand and absorb. i finished esther within a day as in reading and getting the meaning but not exactly in depth but i stare at each chapter of daniel for at least a few days to try and understand what it really means and alot of times i end up using the notes in the study Bible cos half the time the language they use goes round in circles and as usually, lousy at lit as i am i dont get it.

been praying for much wisdom and for Him to open my eyes to the understanding of His Word so yup slowly..and one day i wont use the study Bible notes at all and i can be like pastor! heh okie too ambitious for now but yup baby steps (:

alle, alleluia, lift your praises high!
alle, alleluia- celebrate the Child of light :D

reallyreallyreally looking forward to singing for Christmas and yup though i wont be present for alot of the saturday practices i am determined to sing for Christmas and i will learn it elsewhere and i will learn it fast. got to see ruth and jia yesterday! happyhappy (:

so i guess it all comes down to where your heart is. its there your thoughts and feelings all begin. and if you never give your heart to Jesus, you'll never really have a part with Him. if your mind's set on the Spirit, and youre walking in God's love, then the watching world will see Christ's life in you. but if your mind is set on earth, then on earthly things you'll do, in poverty you'll live your whole life through.

so i guess it all comes down to where my heart is. and i know that as long as i keep walking with Him, if my heart is in the right place, if i never stop fighting for Him, if i never stop learning to see people through His eyes, if i always, always, seek to honour Him, somehow He will make a way, and His blessings will overflow. (: it may not seem like a blessing in the world's eyes but He sees the big picture, and i will learn to trust cos You know better than i. (:

sing noel to all in heaven, sing noel to all the earth! SING NOEL for Christ our Savior- sing noel! (:

repeat the sounding joy (: