was just thinking about how those kids in the russian school died. and the kind of things that are happening right here right now are just really frightening. yesterday, the australian embassy in indonesia bombed. so many people are losing their lives over stupid political issues like that. and i really wonder how many of those that lost their lives actually knew the Lord.

reading left behind now haha courtesy of ian seah but one phrase that keeps recurring in the series is "God is trying to get your attention." and looking at the things right now He is trying to tell us something. do you hear Him? He's saying "go, reach the world." i used to wonder what i could do, tiny, insignificant but He tells me always, through circumcstances, through people, through hymns, through His word He tells me, "I can use you to do great things." and i believe it. no matter how pathetic i am in walking no matter how many times i fall, as long as you accept His gift of salvation and follow with an honest heart, even when we are faithless, He remains faithful, He cannot deny Himself.

God used paul, a persecutor of Christians, a blasphemer, an insolent man. and yet God could turn His life around. how much more can He do that great work in you?

He's still workin' on me! to make me what i oughta be. it took Him just a week to make the moon and stars, the sun and the earth and jupiter and mars. how loving and patient He must be- He's still workin' on me! :D

ben said, its all a matter of perspective. and really, it is. your response to each and every situation in your life is a reflection of your faith, your life, and the entire purpose of your existence. our human response may not always be right, but always pray for His strength and wisdom to give us the tenacity to carry on, believe in His word and take on the everyday challenge of reaching the world- by starting with the girl that sits next to you in gp class who whines and gossips insanely about everything, or the guy everyone thinks is weird that sits alone in the corner of the classroom, or maybe the cynical unbeliever that sees the worst in everything.

im learning still, we all are. but 2corinthians4:1 we never lose heart.. -wink (: