man i hate chasing for homework cos everyone finds me annoying when i do that and even i find myself annoying! as if im not naggy enough :'( shucks and i have to compile the entire econs thing by wednesday shucks breatheeeee really gotta trust Him on this one, the first day of school and so much crap -faint

first real challenge this morning: WAKING UP. im such a pig i sleep like theres no tmr and i literally dragged myself out of bed when the alarm clock rang, forcing myself to bear in mind what kenneth said about the mornings being the best time for qt and yup! spent some time meditating on the psalms and on john10 about the Lord being the door of the sheep and the good shepherd (: and though i really was kinda sleepy, i think i would've been worse if i hadnt spent that time with Him so (:

we [rie jolene ben sherman anthony sam me] were supposed to meet outside the gate to step in together to yaye remind ourselves that we're gonna walk with each other all the way over the next year but everyone was late! ben and sam were SUPREMELY late haha but its ok bearing with one another in LOVE..and anw in the end all the guys thought rie and i were crazy and being stupid so we were the only two that went "one two three STEP!" and stepped in together whilst the rest of them strolled behind -_- thank you for making us look like idiots heh but JOYFUL idiots nonetheless (:

and im really learning the importance of abiding in His ways and walking with Him, not only that but im also being reminded about it over and over again because in every single lecture and tutorial period today we were reminded that this year is really crucial and etc..and i know that just like my o level year i would die and burn out if i didnt have Him. but thats one of the traps i dont want to fall into: just relying on Him cos i know i'd 'die' without Him, but my prayer for this year is that i reallyreally learn what it means to abide in the light, to seek after Him and follow with all that is in me. to take up my cross and follow Him (:

and i refuse to start going mad on the first day of school. i just attempted to clean up my room which really, REALLY is messy and i got so annoyed with the mess! and the irritation was like whoa rising like crazy until i just dropped everything and went to read the psalms..and He really gave me peace (: haha i know it sounds stupid but i really get annoyed when my room is messy cos i know i gotta clean it up some day heh and yea the psalms brought a tremendous sense of comfort and renewed joy to my heart so (: and memorising the Lord's Word brings a muchmuch greater sense of revival and joy- rivers of living water (: over the past two or three weeks i've done psalm3:3, psalm5:12, psalm9:13, psalm28:7, psalm27:6, jer9:23-24, john10:7 and john10:9 haha im still in the midst of revision! but yea i love the psalms (:

im still far from being able to wield the sword of the Spirit [His Word] well and im also far from really loving and desiring His Word but over time, ask, seek and knock and i know He will reveal (:

alot of things on the back of my mind now that i've yet to place down but im not giving up im gonna keep seeking, keep trusting day by day.. and i know i will find the strength to carry on.

Lord of Heaven and earth (: