i am not concentrating very well. garhhhhhh i am sleepy!

i was talking to someone today/yesterday and im glad that i was able to encourage with what i had. i remember what pastor once said- that suffering gives you access to more people. and i think that really is true.

haha in kennedy's words, things are okay.

but im learning, im trying.

i read the parable of the workers in the vineyard today: [Matthew20]

1 "For the kingdom of heaven is like a landowner who went out early in the morning to hire laborers for his vineyard.
2 Now when he had agreed with the laborers for a denarius a day, he sent them into his vineyard.
3 And he went out about the third hour and saw others standing idle in the marketplace,
4 and said to them, 'You also go into the vineyard, and whatever is right I will give you.' So they went.
5 Again he went out about the sixth and the ninth hour, and did likewise.
6 And about the eleventh hour he went out and found others standing idle,[a] and said to them, 'Why have you been standing here idle all day?'
7 They said to him, 'Because no one hired us.' He said to them, 'You also go into the vineyard, and whatever is right you will receive.'[b]
8 "So when evening had come, the owner of the vineyard said to his steward, 'Call the laborers and give them their wages, beginning with the last to the first.'
9 And when those came who were hired about the eleventh hour, they each received a denarius.
10 But when the first came, they supposed that they would receive more; and they likewise received each a denarius.
11 And when they had received it, they complained against the landowner,
12 saying, 'These last men have worked only one hour, and you made them equal to us who have borne the burden and the heat of the day.'
13 But he answered one of them and said, 'Friend, I am doing you no wrong. Did you not agree with me for a denarius?
14 Take what is yours and go your way. I wish to give to this last man the same as to you.
15 Is it not lawful for me to do what I wish with my own things? Or is your eye evil because I am good?'
16 So the last will be first, and the first last. For many are called, but few chosen."[c]

its amazing how Jesus fitted all these amazing and fascinating concepts into such a simple story. the jews are the workers who started working in the morning, and the gentiles those that came nearer the end of the day. and i think this parable just reminds me of how blessed i am when i look to the Lord and all that He's given me. many are called, but few chosen. its always in the down-er periods of my life that i discover the Lord so much more. and its also in the down-er periods of my life i realise that although i may not feel like it, i know and realise that He's all i need, when He's all i have left.