i think these two verses sum up my life-

"before i was afflicted, i went astray,
but now i keep Your Word."

"it is good for me that i have been afflicted,
that i may learn Your statutes."

psalm119:67,71

my life is like this sine wave, and my faith life is the inverse sine wave or something. haha i dont understand myself. haha go figure. if you understand what i mean, you understand me. (: