today i had a very very very exciting day!!! i went to be beach on my own... hahahaha it was a long walk, i took like 45 mins, what with all the slopes and all, but it was DEFINITELY worth it. last night i had decided that i wanted to take some time off today and just be with the Lord.. but when i got up this morning the skies were all overcast and the radio said it was gonna be rainy, cloudy and dreary ALL week. so i prayed as hard as i could... and the sun came out! just enough sun, for just enough time for me to be awed by the wonders of God and creation. just enough time for me to journal and pen down my thoughts. just enough time to take in the beauty of the Lord's creation and remember.

today i was reminded that i want to do great things for God.. i really do. again i come to the realisation that i am miles away from where i should be.. i am amazed that He hasnt yet given up on me.. after 21 years of all my variously stupid struggles, when i find it so difficult to just listen and obey and stop worrying and taking my life into my own hands. but God has been amazingly, amazingly good to me!

and in all.. i am glad that i am never alone (:

"Do not let your adornment be merely outward—arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel—

rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God.

For in this manner, in former times, the holy women who trusted in God also adorned themselves...

- 1 Peter 3:3-5

its gonna be a long journey..but nevertheless a very exciting one!