the past few days have been.. well v tiring (: orientation was great really even though we did really gross stuff like wiping the grass with our butts HURM but i also realised how easily, how insidiously all of the fun and the hectic schedule of jc life was dragging me away from the Lord. first i get so tired that when i come back, qt is usually say max. thirty to forty minutes? and then im dead to the world and usually its not v fruitful either cos im all so tired and all i can hardly absorb anything. the mornings were better though cos the trip to ac is so long i can read in the car but yea its just not the same. and SO i was saying i attacked stupid insidious satan back on my own and yes obviously it didnt work and so anyway i guess the Lord had to send me a biiiig knocking reminder that OI YOURE GETTING OUTTA LINE and yea He sent me a biiiiig lesson to remind me with a huuuuuuge price to pay.

and i know clearly what He wants me to learn through this experience, the big huge lesson- of forgiveness. and i tell you its really really REALLY difficult to forgive someone when the extent of damage is like. THAT MUCH especially when i've tried to be nice any chance i got. and its like whoaaa so frustrated i cried i screamed i cant remember what else i did i moped i dunno WHAT else i did and then i went hey. isnt whats laid out for me in Heaven a MILLION TIMES BETTER than what i have here on earth? and then the pain becomes so much easier to bear (: cos i realise that evil people can take everything on earth away from me but they can never EVER take away the salvation that i've been given (: and nothing can ever separate us from the love of God! :D:D [romans 8:37-39]

i will look to Jesus, the Author and Finisher of our faith- for always (:

haha the most exciting thing about ac is that im in andrew's grand junior class and rie is in edlyn's grand junior class which is really qte amusing heh rie is highly amused at this and im like HM. but anyway our senior class is funny heh a little strange but they seem like nice people heh and they're planning a party i think and inviting us hmmm i promise to not go anywhere near a club! ok commitment made :D

light of the world, salt of the earth (:

when they look into my eyes, will it be Your eyes they see?