1 o Lord, do not rebuke me in Your anger, nor chasten me in Your hot displeasure.
2 have mercy on me, o Lord for i am weak, o Lord, heal me, for my bones are troubled.
3 my soul also is greatly troubled; but You o Lord- how long?
4 return, o Lord, deliver me! oh, save me for Your mercies' sake!
5 for in death there is no remembrance of You; in the grave who will give You thanks?
6 i am weary with groaning; all night i make my bed swim; i drench my couch with my tears.
7 my eye wastes away because of grief; it grows old because of all my enemies.
8 depart from me, all you workers of iniquity; for the Lord has heard the voice of my weeping.
9 the Lord has heard my supplication; the Lord will receive my prayer.
10 let all my enemies be ashamed and greatly troubled; let them turn back and be ashamed suddenly.
i've been a churchian all my life but a Christian for maybe three years now and i still struggle with the same problems of sin in my life over, and over again. my prayer is always 'o Lord its coming back again please MAKE IT GO AWAY' my short temper is definitely one of them everytime i get annoyed i just feel this surge in my chest and i keep trying to suppress that REALLY HUGE urge to yell sucks i know
the past two days sucked and i guess it really just nudges me towards Him more and more cos its when you havent got anyone that you learn to lean on Him so much more. i'll never understand why we run away from the One who loves us the most but then again, who ever will.
sometimes i really wonder why He places me in sucky situations and such terrible emotional trauma that im all too familiar with but the phrase from that song we sang before 'He will never give you more than you can take.'
really, He never will.
i sat down in my room just now with my Best friend and the two most wonderful gifts He's ever given- His word and ice cream :D heh k im kidding ice cream does NOT compare to the Bible but yea i realise that though its tough to keep focus, and though even up till now im still struggling with it and it doesnt seem qte possible even now, it IS and im gonna keep trying.
i really wonder why i feel this way, but phil4:13 'i can do all things through Christ who strengthens me' (:
and i will go through the fire, if You want me to.
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