results was like WOW i really, truly am amazed at the extent to which He has blessed and the strength He's given to pull us through this time. i never expected six pts neither did i expect seven ones but He really, REALLY gave it to me and i have nothing but a heart full of gratefulness and thanksgiving (:

whilst i was walking just now my mind rewinded back to the time when i read that letter that ms ma made us write to ourselves and i remember being amazed at how He answered my prayer in giving me 8 pts for the prelims.. and THEN i realised an even BIGGER amazement.. the second part of the letter, 6 pts for the o's was answered. and im really like WOW cos seriously when i wrote that letter, six was like SO far off but He answered me anyway and its just so amazing, SO amazing :D

but i realise also that even in the course of preparing my heart for receiving my results, i've failed in many ways. and really the one thing i regret the most about today was my response when i first looked at my result slip. i told myself no matter what it would first be giving thanks to Him for all that comes but instead my first natural human instinct was to SCREAM and then i dont know what but i said 'thank you ms ma' which was completely uncalled for LA run around scream somemore and scream to my mom and yeaaaa sucks la knowing that even after purposing in my heart i still.. koyak. but i know also that even from this really horrid failure, theres a lesson to be learnt and i am DETERMINED to learn from it no matter what

i know right now thanksgiving really is a must for me but it wasnt my first thought even though im think of it now. i can just picture Him standing there next to the table, waiting for me to give Him a hug and thank Him in a prayer for all He's done. but instead.. i turn and run in the other direction. to someone else.

walking constitutes struggles, pain and sacrifice and though the amount of elation from the results that He gave is so immense its still a reminder of how i've failed in this aspect. but i've picked myself up, dusted myself off and im ready to roll again :D

i am so thankful at being able to remain in sbone, i love sbone, i love acjc but most of all, i should love the One that loves me that most which i havent learnt to love above all else yet. but through time i'll learn, in His time He makes all things beautiful (:

haha this is from jia's blog its a LOVELY song and absolutely beautiful, You know better than i (:

You know better than i

I thought I did what's right
I thought I had the answers
I thought I chose the surest road
But that road brought me here
So I put up a fight
And told You how to help me
Now just when I have given up
The truth is coming clear

You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
For You know better than I.

If this has been a test
I cannot see the reason
But maybe knowing I don't know
Is part of getting through.
I try to do what's best
And faith has made it easy
To see the best thing I can do
Is put my trust in You

You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
For You know better than I.

I saw one cloud and thought it was the sky
I saw a bird and thought that I could follow
But it was You who taught that bird to fly
If I let You reach me, Will You teach me

For You know better than I
You know the way
I've let go the need to know why
I'll take what answers You supply
You know better than I.