behind those hazel eyes.

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore..

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes.

haha yaye i am a kelly clarkson fan! heh. been listening to her cd alot and at this point in time alot of her songs really seem to apply which is not very good. but seriously i think this is the millionth time the Lord is trying to teach me the lesson of not depending even on the friends that are closest to me cos they always, always fail you. its a painful lesson to learn especially when it suddenly hits you in the face and you dont know what hit you. but yea unless i learn this lesson of full dependence on Him im gonna keep going through crap like that until i reallyreallyREALLY learn that lesson.

humans are out of point and stupid cos even though we know so very well that if we first give Him preeminence in our lives, we will be able to take on every circumstance no matter how trying or difficult, WE DONT. and thats exactly what i do all the time. and its so silly cos at the end of it i realise that all He wanted to do was to get my attention, hold my hand and walk with me.

"i will love You o Lord my strength. the Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer. my God, my strength, in Whom i will trust. my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold." -psalm18:1-2

haha from sunday school where liling jolene and t aileen were fiercely advocating psalm18 and of course the memory verse for the week and its been an amazing source of strength [including the purpose driven life :D] and i just want to keep at it. i admit im tired, im drained, but at the end of this long road, i'll see Him face to face- and that is my reason to live. (:

walk, change, fight. remember? (: