funorama 06 was today! haha it was CRAZY as usual, hot like anything crowded like anything, ripoff like anything- but fun nonetheless. haha its really good bonding for classes and stuff and its such a happy/crazy atmosphere it makes you go abit crazy too haha. the games were quite hilarious haha i played a game to scoop out marbles from a pail of water using this pathetically small spoon haha and all i won were sweets -_- daniel's stupid dart stall was even WORSE weibo threw the dart right OVER the board goodness man i almost died. haha. ah man has learnt the fang fei ji concept and she ditched me the whole morning! haha selfproclaimed jessica alba. heh i met mrs soong! and she was telling me from now till the opening ceremony of the physics olympiad in july i:

1. cannot develop any pimples
2. cannot put on weight
3. must practise pinning corsages.

and im like whaaaaat! haha i shall die helping out. but oh well His grace is sufficient ;) much, and more.

how do you share the love of Jesus with a lonely man?
how do you tell a hungry man about the bread of life?
how do you tell a thirsty man about the living water of the Lord?
how do you tell him of His Word?

how to you tell a dying man about eternal life?
how do you tell an orphan child about the Father's love?
how do you tell a man who's poor about the wondrous riches of the Lord?
how do you tell him of His Word?

how do you tell a loveless world that God Himself is love?
how do you help a man who's down to lift His eyes above?
how do you tell a bleeding man about the healing power of the Lord?
how do you tell him of His Word?

people who know go to people who need to know Jesus
people who love go to people alone without Jesus
for there are people who need to see,
people who need to love
people who need to know God's redeeming love.
people who see go to those who are blind without Jesus
and this is people to people, yes,
people to people
all sharing together God's love.

when we sang this song at the choir gathering just now, it reminded me of bethany's emphasis this year on evangelism. and i guess this theme got me so much more conscious of the need and the urgency of reaching out, especially to those i love and hold dear to my heart. i think i find it especially hard to talk to friends that do not know the Lord and my grandfather when i visit him every week. cos in the course of our conversations, somehow someway it always strikes me that 'hey this person doesnt know the Lord, DO SOMETHING.' and everytime that thought comes to my mind my heart just falls into the pit of my stomach. and while it hurts knowing that someone i love does not know Him, i know how much more it hurts Him. i wanna be Your hands, wanna be Your feet- i'll go where You send me, go where You send me and i'll try to touch the world like You touched my life. each time i pray for my friends and my grandfather it reminds me again and again of how blessed i am to know Him, how blessed i am to be serving in the ypg comm, how blessed to be able to sing in the choir, to be planning the kids outing. on days when there are so many things to do and life gets so overwhelming, im learning to pray for strength, strength and joy to bring me through.

the joy, the peace that passes all understanding. because i have been given the truth, i want those i love to know the truth, too.

on the way back from church, this poem came to mind. its called 'my friend'.

My friend, I stand in Judgment now
And feel that you're to blame somehow
On earth I walked with you day by day
And never did you point the way.

You knew the Lord in truth and glory
But never did you tell the story
My knowledge then was very dim
You could have led me safe to him.

Though we lived together here on earth
You never told me of the second birth
And now I stand this day condemned
Because you failed to mention Him.

You taught me many things that's true
I called you friend and trusted you
But I learn now that it's too late
And you could have kept me safe from this fate.

We walked by day and talked by night
And you showed me not the light
You let me live and love and die
You knew I'd never live on high.

Yes, I called you friend in life,
And trusted you through joy and strife
And yet, on coming to this dreadful end
I cannot now, call you, my friend.

i remember the first time i heard this poem, it was at youth conference 2001 hm i think the theme was 'established in the faith' haha forgive me if im wrong my memory is baaaad. but anw i remember singing 'crucified with Christ' with the youth choir that conference and i remember crying while we presented that song. not i, but Christ that lives within me. His love will never give me more than i can take. and that poem hit me hard. but over the years, i've felt this drive to reach out dwindle when i go through trials and the three people i think of are just me, myself and i. but when teacher deonna challenged sss people to reach out this year, i wrote down the names of three friends that i've committed myself to praying for and caring for this year. and i dont want this to just be about me, myself and i, NO MATTER WHAT i go through. when results come, i dont want to stumble, i just want to stand in faith, no matter what lot He gives me. i want to stand strong so i can tell the people that i love that the God Who loves me loves you too, let me help show you the way. not just because its a command in matthew to spread the gospel, but because i love you, He loves you, and i pray for you everyday. (: