ooh i've been trying to practise alot of love and patience at work this week, but its been extremely extremely hard. seeking to be so much more conscious of His presence even when crazy people screech at every little mistake and never give any room for error even though we've only been doing this ONE MONTH when they've been doing it their ENTIRE LIFE gah. now i know how cel really feels.

t aileen challenged us during prayer meeting on monday to choose a thought from the message to dwell on for the week and i chose strength. and the joy of the Lord truly is my strength. haha i was listening to hillsongs on my ipod when crazy screeched and after i returned to my desk while doing some breathing exercises and all, i sought to find much strength in the Lord and He gave me the peace and calmness and joy that was just enough to restrain me from throwing crazy into the paper shredder or smth. haha no la! just kidding. haha mandy and i have paper shredding dates everyday at 515pm haha its just enough to keep us sane haha i said i just imagine the evil people are being shredded then i feel alot better hee. NO IM NOT THAT EVIL. haha but mandy said during lunch that i shdnt get affected when people talk to me like im the stupidest person in the world cos i made a mistake or smth haha cos she said such people need to make others feel small to make themselves feel big! haha SO i shall bear that in mind and just focus hard on Him. but of course sometimes i am extra extra careless so i shall practise what pastor mitch taught me to look within myself and fix my faults before blaming it all on crazy (:

learning to dwell on His Word is an amazing skill that im still struggling very much to cultivate, but i guess its through experiences with excessively insane people that i learn what it means to seek, what it means to put into practice all that i've been learning from His Word. (:

"i have rejoiced in the way of Your testimonies, as much as in all riches." -psalm119:14

haha but im still thankful that most people at work are nice and i have nice people in my row haha plus cel and mandy yaye (: but we're gonna ot like crazy soon! so yea i must brace myself. haha anw valentines day yesterday was SAD haha no la not really i got to go to church! haha but on the bus to church every 5metres i saw a couple so after awhile i gave up trying to admire scenery, better to read the Bible heh.

Thought that I was all alone
Broken and afraid
But You were there with me
Yes, You were there with me

And I didn't even know
That I had lost my way
But You were there with me
Yes, You were there with me

'Til You opened up my eyes
I never knew
That I couldn't ever make it
Without You

Even though the journey's long
And I know the road is hard
Well, the One who's gone before me
He will help me carry on
After all that I've been through
Now I realize the truth
That I must go through the valley
To stand upon the mountain of God

As I travel on the road
That You have lead me down
You are here with me
Yes, You are here with me
I have need for nothing more
Oh, now that I have found
That You are here with me
Yes, You are here with me

I confess from time to time
I lose my way
But You are always there
To bring me back again

Sometimes I think of where it is I've come from
And the things I've left behind
But of all I've had, what I possessed
Nothing can quite compare
With what's in front of me
With what's in front of me

i must go through the valley, to stand upon the mountain of God. (: haha maybe i'll face even more crazys in my working life in the future so this is a gooooood building block for me to build a rock solid foundation of strength through finding joy and being as think-skinned as i could ever be such that nothing can get me down ;) its amazinggggggg that its already wednesday, and the weekend is coming soon! praise the Lord ;) haha

just had dinner with joey quek and as usual he knows all the gossip HM sometimes i wonder if thats good or bad but anw. it scares me the things people do nowadays and doing strange shd-not-be-mentioned things are NORMAL and im like whaaaaaaat. but cel mandy and i talked about it during lunch one day and actually it is true that if we didnt have the Lord, thinking just the way the world thinks would be an extremely high possibility. thanking Him that we truly are blessed to know Him as we do, and theres NOTHING that anyone can do to take away that joy He has put in my heart (: [ps: no matter how many crazys i meet ;)]

It's the hope I know, the grace You show
Thats drawing me closer, drawing me closer
It's the peace I feel, it's Your love so real
That's drawing me closer

And my heart beats with pure amazement
Every time I feel the tender touch of Your love
Drawing me closer

and i will go through the valley, just to stand upon the mountain of God. (: