i re-found this beautiful hymn yesterday when i was flipping through the century praise that my parents bought me for my birthday [just in case someone thinks i koped it from church ;p] and the words just remind me all over again of the newness of life believing in Him can bring (:
once it was the blessing, now it is the Lord
once it was the feeling, now it is His Word
once His gift i wanted, now the Giver own
once i sought for healing, now Himself alone.
all in all forever, Jesus will i sing
everything in Jesus,
and Jesus everything.
once 'twas painful trying, now 'tis perfect trust
once a half-salvation, now the uttermost!
once t'was ceaseless holding, now He holds me fast;
once 'twas constant drifting, now my anchor's cast.
all in all forever, Jesus will i sing
everything in Jesus,
and Jesus everything.
once 'twas busy planning, now 'tis trustful prayer
once 'twas what i wanted, now what Jesus says
once 'twas constant asking, now 'tis ceaseless praise.
all in all forever, Jesus will i sing
everything in Jesus,
and Jesus everything.
once it was my working, His it hence shall be;
once i tried to use Him, now He uses me!
once the power i wanted, now the Mighty One;
once for self i laboured, now for Him alone.
all in all forever, Jesus will i sing
everything in Jesus,
and Jesus everything.
once i hoped in Jesus, now i know He's mine;
once my lamps were dying, now they brightly shine!
once for death i waited, now His coming hail;
and my hopes are anchored, safe within the vail.
all in all forever, Jesus will i sing
everything in Jesus,
and Jesus everything. (:
its a beautiful, beautiful hymn. (: as i reflected on how the past two months have been, i realise how often i've been guilty of all those listed above, to name a few- seeking just healing, painful trying, anxious caring, constant asking. and as i considered once again the same idea of trust, letting go and letting Him, i know that i am guilty, so guilty of not trusting as i should.
theres a particular lesson that i dont seem to have learnt, and i keep going through the same kind of situations over, and over and over again. different people, but SAM SITUATION. and as i identified that fact last night i asked myself, WHY do i make myself go through crap over and over again? if i would learn my lesson, become a little bit wiser from the pain He puts me through, maybe He wouldnt have to throw me in the deep end and force me to swim so much. haha kenneth said thats what he's been trying to do to me rie and ben. throw us in the deep end and force us to swim. and if i dont learn even after being thrown into the deep end, He hasnt any choice but to keep teaching me the same lesson over and over again.
and SO, i decided that i should stop it. i should right now purpose in my heart that i will respond differently this time, i WILL learn from past errors and i will not repeat my stupid mistake. and i will be wise and i will always, always, not just in word but in deed and action put Him first above all else.
the next challenge coming my way is the a level results. i can just envision myself freakingggggggg out on that day. but as i considered what my preparation would be, what my response would be as i sought Him, as i professed trust in Him, i do pray for perfect peace, and that fear will not grip my heart and make it fall into the pit of my stomach the way it usually does when i get nervous or scared. i am practising being in much prayer now. and gradually, i know i am really beginning to believe so much more in the power of prayer and not taking it so much for granted.
to change something in someone, one day- for Him. (:
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