oh dear this is very bad. haha this morning i went through one of the evening service msges from psalm73, and i thought it was last week's msg, but apparently its not cos i cant seem to find it now! haha but ANW, it was a real blessing to my heart when i read it this morning. it brought me great comfort that i know i dont face struggles alone!

basically the msg was about the psalmist telling God about the prosperity of the wicked like in psalm73:5 "they are not in trouble as other men, nor are they plagued like other men." and it almost seems like the psalmist is regretting his choice of choosing to live a righteous life that pleases God when you come to verses13 and 14 "surely i have cleansed my heart in vain, and washed my hands in innocence. for all day long i have been plagued, and chastened every morning."

there are times when i wonder why people seem to be having such an easy time, breezing through school, having fun and doing well when im just struggling to keep up. and i sometimes wonder, since He promised to bless us, shouldnt we have the victory? but then im reminded of a phrase from a POG [point of grace] song:

it may not be the way, i would've chosen.
when You lead me through a world that's not my home.
but You never said it would be easy-
You only said i'd never go alone. (:

and im again reminded of acts5:41-42. this is my classic remember-what-a-great-privilege-it-is-to-serve-Him verse!

after paul and the apostles were persecuted by the pharisees for proclaiming the Name of Jesus, thrown into prison and whatnot..

"so they departed from the presence of the council, REJOICING that they were counted worthy to suffer for His sake. and daily in the temple and in every house, they did not cease teaching and preaching Jesus as Christ."

this verse really gives me inspiration! everytime i feel so tired trying to be a light when everyone just tries to throw a damp cloth at you to extinguish the light, im reminded, His special people. privilege! never a chore.

who will make a commitment to take a stand?
I WILL BE THE ONE.
who will follow after Christ with no turning back?
I WILL BE THE ONE.
who will hear God's voice and obey His call?
I WILL BE THE ONE.

i will be the one that God is looking for, I WILL NEVER BE ASHAMED! in the Name of the Lord i'll stand and proclaim: "yes, i will be the one. I WILL BE THE ONE!" (: