i just wrote a whole load of unhappiness in this text box- and deleted it.

i read this from lotsofscotts.blogspot.com today: It requires a big faith to trust God to do as He pleases, not just as we please. It is scary to think of what may be required of my life for His Glory. Yet, the alternative...trusting myself in all of my fallability rather than Him in all His Majesty... is just not an option.

it's not an option. grace has been on my mind for the past hour or so. the hardest part of grace is letting go (i got that from one tree hill! haha so its not such a trashy show after all haha).

and again from lotsofscotts

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV)

I loved this in The Message. "Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you'll recover your life. I'll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly."

i will learn the unforced rhythm of grace. its gonna take a long time before i stop getting mad at being misunderstood. but hey, whats it to me? Jesus took it all. every insult, every rebellion, everything. but oh well, ya cant please everyone! just focus on the One that really matters. ;)