HAHA i made 14:13mins for 2.4 today.. talk about God's grace i was just hoping to make it before 16:10 which is a c :D

i've got predominantly two things that're bugging me and i daresay im glad its not anymore cos these two are already more than enough and im not exactly sure how im gonna place these two huuuuge burdens down at His feet. i've been trying, committing, praying but somehow, theres just something inside of me that refuses to let go.

theres just this void that i can feel is getting bigger and its nobody's fault but my own that this self-created rift through all the distractions in the past few months cant be closed. if i spoke to myself now i wouldnt be able to tell that im a Christian. its gonna take alot of effort on my part to bridge the gap and im knowingly backslided the past few months. i've got alot to learn, but strength, still i want to finish my race, with joy (: