spa is so annoying everyone else has ended! and here we are..studying for spa. grrr haha but im good influence jolene wanted to go out but i wouldnt let her so we studied..SPA. the horrid, evil spa. oh HELP i really dont feel like studying anymore and i just need to find His strength and willpower and press on and not give up!

haha i remember t chen kee telling jia and i last sunday about james1:18 that we are the FIRSTFRUITS of His creation and today i just came across it again and just meditating on it and psalm138:8 [still haha] gave me the strength for today (: math was really, really REALLY terrible. i've never done so a horrible paper in my life! halfway through i was like. all ready to cry. and thank goodness i caught myself in time and i just stopped doing the paper and i prayed and i told the Lord that im gonna trust Him no matter how horrible the paper gets and just make the most out of it and yea i didnt cry haha (: i had this really really bad mental block i couldnt remember how to integrate 1/x2 and i just kept staring at it and the other cosecx question that i just couldnt do..and goodness the curve sketching one where i didnt even sketch the graph at all and alotalotalot of others that were just..terrible. but yea! after i prayed i wasnt so kan chiong anymore and i just felt His peace [see philippians4:6-8 the peace that surpasses ALL UNDERSTANDING!] and after awhile it just kinda came back.. and like ten mins before the end of the paper i saw the light! and i saved myself about eight marks from the cosecx question.. haha and i reallyreally do see His grace and im just reallyreally thankful and even if i still fail, its OK i will trust and just work harder the next time so i can do all the horrifyingly difficult class tests we get in class haha (:

and well today i learnt a big lesson about trusting Him with my life- AND my math results. and regardless, though im stressed and pretty troubled over this and crap, walking with Jesus there is no greater thrill! walking with Jesus calms my heart like nothing else will. (:

all i'll ever need.

Some days I'm fragile
Some days I'm stronger
Sometimes I just want to run
But Your tender mercies gently pursue me
When all is said and done

Where else would I go
Who else could there be
No one but You, Lord, can see
Can see all of me, oh
You opened my eyes
Oh, how I believe
In everything You are 'cause You are
All I'll ever need

My heart's full of questions
The future's uncertain
But I'm gonna stand on what's true
'Cause I have discovered
A love like no other
The love I've found in You