i am very sleepy now. cherie this is all your fault! but its contributory negligence on my part too. why did i have such a randomrandomRANDOM thought that confused you and caused us to talk for three hours. hahahah EEEP TORTS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY.

i keep having random thoughts so, bear with me a little will you. haha thea's nick is 'defective conformists, all of you.' it means: people go with the herd mentality cos they're not strong enough to make it on their own, or make their own choices. they choose to follow others, even though it may not be the best choice for them. and so their conformism arises out of a sense of defectiveness, its in their weaknesses that they conform. haha trust her to encapsulate this idea in such a cheeeeeeeem way. just like how she freaked me out during the law interview cos she knew just about everything and she was trying to tell me about the sdp and workers party like two seconds before i went in!

and i think im seeing alot of this nowadays. people wanting to be something they're not. but sometimes i wonder if you can really blame them. wanting to be accepted is normal, maybe some people just dont know how to find themselves. so they follow what people do in an attempt to create for themselves and identity that they like. but anyhow, im just thankful that i have the Lord. cos it doesnt matter who i am, what i do, He loves me all the same. and theres no need to seek acceptance in the world's eyes, cos theres only One that really matters. (:

my second random thought is that ALL OF US ARE STRANGE. seriously. we're all strange. but most of us 'appear' normal cos we hide our strangeness well. haha everyone has thoughts/ feelings/ urges [e.g. to strangle someone that reallyyyy makes you angry] that we would nevernevernever admit, even to our closest friends. haha but THEN again im thankful that i have One Friend that will never repeat my strangeness to anybody. ahha unless He decides to give someone a vision. which is like HURMM impossible. not now anw. haha so yes, i am thankful (:

and i will get back to studying torts now before i end up with 5%/15% of my torts grade. oh save me. and please pray hard for me! (: