today's prayer meeting really was a very special and timely reminder (:

today was the FIRST OFFICIAL DAY OF HOLIDAYS! haha we went to recce manymany places for the ypg1 outing with the aid of the church's minibus, but thats another story for a time when i have enough patience to upload the million and one spastic photos we took but anw, back to the more important stuff.

i was superrrr sleepy when i got up this morning and when my hp alarm rang, i reached over and tried to switch it off..and whacked my citation book which then slid down the huuuge pile of books on my sidetable, knocked my cup of water and it fell ALL OVER MY MAC. i jumped up in an instant. kill me please.

hahah but i took sometime to do some personal reflection this morning, and i wrote down some of my thoughts about law school and the things/ changes ive experienced this past few weeks. i made myself come to terms with the choices ive been wrestling with at the back of my mind and i made a goodgood determination to always make the choice to honor the Lord and make the wisest choice. i dont think i will always be able to make the right choices, but i am going to lean on His strength and TRY. VERY HARD.

i enjoyed prayer meeting aloooottttalotalot today, cos i found almost every part of the msg applicable to the way i feelpasto right now. pastor mitch brought up the idea of having a RELATIONSHIP with God's Word. and thats a thought ive not really considered before. what it means to have a relationship with the Bible. it is true that the Bible is ALIVE, cos when you seek it with a sincere heart, the Holy Spirit opens up your understanding to the truths in the Lord's Word, but it just never occurred to me to cultivate a relationship with it.

to:
1. stand in awe of it
2. find great joy in it
3. love it
4. praise the Lord for it

pastor mitch shared about how he too found it hard to love the Lord's Word when he began serving in church and he mostly turned to it cos he needed to, in order to minister effectively. and i think thats a trap i often fall into as well. but from this point in my life i see two possible routes:

1. the sunday Christian route. the in-two-years-i-am-going-to-get-so-tired-of-everything-and-just-turn-up-for-service-every-sunday route.
2. the powerful servant of God route! the in-two-years-i-am-going-to-be-even-stronger-in-my-faith-and-be-an-effective-and-useFUL-servant-of-God route.

AND I AM VERY MUCH INCLINED TO WORK TOWARDS THE LATTER. very much.

personal determinations:

1. HOPE
"Lord, i hope for Your salvation.." psalm119:166a

2. OBEDIENCE
"and i do Your commandments.." psalm119:166b

3. LOVE
"i love them exceedingly.." psalm119:167b

4. CONSCIOUSNESS OF GOD
"all my ways are before You.." psalm119:168b

I WILL DETERMINE IN MY HEART. (: