so today it is 2degrees celcius and i was literally SHIVERING with cold the moment we stepped out of starbucks. but the cold and the walking and having to be out at night (that i hate to do cos it means i will freeze) was absolutely worth it.

do you know how special it is to find like-minded individuals, grounded in the Word of God, seeking after the same things that i am? i cannot explain how refreshing it is to just be able to talk freely about situations and struggles in our lives (and to be reminded that im not the only one that suffers from i-need-to-try-to-take-matters-into-my-own-hands syndrome hur) and to just look at each other and say 'i dont understand how people do this without God!'. i have been praying for a long time.. and its absolutely amazing how God answers prayer.

incidentally, the cherry on the top of the cake is that amidst all this amazing wisdom and fellowship, is that what we talked about tonight is exactly what i have been fretting about these past few months, and have recently come to terms with in my heart. and you know, our God is an amazing God. He doesnt leave us in the lurch. He helps us when we try to seek Him. when we want to trust Him.

today i was talking to a friend, and we got to talking about the concept of trust. these past few days so many questions keep popping up in my head - what if this, what if that, what if, what if, what if... and then i realised. trust is THE answer. it isnt AN answer. it is THE answer. then there will be less questions. or rather, the questions wont matter so much anymore. cos then you take it one step at a time, using the Lord's Word as your light so you dont trip over anything along the way, and then you just rest. rest in the knowing that it will be GREAT. not just alright, it will be GREAT cos He's in control. and then you just let go. and if its His peace you find, youre making the right decisions.

"foolishness is bound up in the heart of a child;
the rod of correction will drive it far from him."
- Proverbs 22:15

"as a dog returns to his own vomit,
so a fool repeats his folly."
- Proverbs 26:11

as i read these verses, and the countless other verses on the folly of man, i was reminded again and again that i do NOT want to repeat any of the mistakes that i have made in my life. the second verse, especially, is just so..vivid a description of how absolutely ridiculous it is to be committing the same mistake over and over again.

and i am reminded again of how special it is to be able to let go and just fall in His arms of grace and love. trust, then fall. trust fall, they call it. He wont let you fall if He's not there to catch ya.

i am going to sleep tonight with a full heart. and the knowing that my God is Almighty, powerful and a wonderful Lord. (: