sometimes i really find it so hard to be conscious of His presence and alot of times i just breeze through the day without really taking time to talk with Him, sit down and say a prayer. and for myself at least, half the time i go into denial mode and cheat myself into thinking im right with God when im not.

d1 said we were never meant to be some horrible piece of driftwood in the sea, we were NEVER MEANT TO BE FAITHLESS, we were never meant to walk away.

teapot called me yesteryesterday n she was telling me about how she was kinda scared about going into ajc on her own and somewhere in the middle of the conversation she stopped short and told me i changed alot. heh she said i used to really like shopping [ i mean i still DO la] heh but now i have realised that shopping is not my life O______o i felt so insulted la but thats besides the point and i reallyreally am vvvvvvvvvvv thankful that He hears and answers prayer, and it reallyreallyreallyreallyreally makes me happy when i can tell someone about Him it just reallyyyyyyyyyy makes me feel good (: but i look at the people around me and i really am thankful to have Him. its just that.. everyones so caught up with 'worldly' desires ruth said another thing that made sense, worldly does not only encompass people that go clubbing/go on movie marathons and all that you can be worldly in a totally different sense- like making getting good grades the goal for your life.

not that wanting to get good grades or clubbing is wrong in itself cos its not. its what those issues lead you to- they lead you off in a tangent, away from the Lord. and thats really the biggest STOP sign anyone could ever stuff in front of you, but i know im also v guilty of not heeding His STOP signs so i have to learn how to do it NOW before i go and get myself bruised all over in jc next year.

huuuge big problem i know i have to overcome, my real short temper with my mum. gah jia howwww heh we must be patient with our mums k whoooooo remember they love us alot (:

all in all forever, Jesus will i sing, everything in Jesus, and Jesus everything (: