haiyooo im super tired :'(
heh but i am four hundred and ninety five dollars richer so im v happy HAH ;p i think thats qte pathetic compared to what other people collect but hurmmm who cares i will just be thankful for what i have (:
here i am to bow down,
here i am to say that You're my God.
You're altogether lovely,
altogether worthy,
altogether wonderful to me.
the distractions of jc life are enlarging themselves in front of me and I HATE IT and i know how easy it is to drop everything i have believed in for the past two years since i gave Him my life and just walk away. i've seen people do it and its really scary and i still remember when i saw the gradual absence from church and all the other telling factors how i prayed so hard for them and prayed as well that that would never never happen to me. i still pray that it wont, and i believe that as long as my heart is in the right place and i do my best to maintain this very precious walk with Him, that theres no doubt that He will do more than His share to keep me- just like what He did 2000 years ago. but i know that i should never underestimate the power of evil insidious satan and that i must always be ALERT and un-chidun in my reaction to battle if need be so grrrr first comes discipline of the body and the spirit, and second remembering never, NEVER to make compromises about my faith in this great God of mine. I WILL FIGHT!
which You made for me to rest.
where the pasture grows and the river flows,
and the blackbird builds her nest.
oh, the life was sweet and i longed to stay,
but i heard the distant drum,
and the muffled sound of marching feet,
and i knew the war had come. [ac! :'(]
well You know im not a fighter Lord,
and the hosts of hell are strong.
so fill me with Your Spirit,
help me put my armour on.
and when i face the enemy,
Lord all that he will see,
is me standing there in You,
and You standing there in me.
Lord i loved it there in the quiet place,
but i heard the battle cry.
now here i stand in the blood and flame,
and i had to ask You why.
oh the pasture's there for the lambs, You said,
it was never meant to be,
the place to try the souls of men
or the place of victory.
well You know im not a fighter Lord,
and the hosts of hell are strong.
so fill me with Your Spirit,
help me put my armour on.
and when i face the enemy,
Lord all that he will see,
is me standing there in You,
and You standing there in me.
heh sc isnt THAT sheltered but i guess compared to ac it is and considering the fact that its a girls' school, its DEFINITELY a quiet place compared to sbone what with siran's crazy laughter, justin's REALLY HIGH reactivity towards ben t's being a faggot and hurm their gayness, the sound of gina chewing mentos, crazy questions the geps always raise during lessons and a whole lot of other rubbish heh which despite the craziness, i really appreciate (:
i think the one thing im really scared about is shuffling my priorities. i KNOW how important it is to be able to get your priorities straight and to be able to focus on what is the most important to you. heh i just thought about the econs lecture where mrsdunnowhat was teaching us about opportunity cost like how when you list your priorities/choices in order of your preference when you get choice number 1 for example you sacrifice the benefits of choice 2. yea something like that and right now my priorities are still, thankfully around the same as last year which is
1) God
2) studies
3) friends and my family
when i placed friends and family third it doesnt mean i ignore them and go study but it refers more to.. well my SOCIAL life if thats what you want to call it cos if you ask me in terms of priorities, finishing danielkhor's physics homework is DEFINITELY higher in priority as compared to going shopping with someone but if it means a friend needs to talk, then danielkhor's physics homework can just go and die heh
but what i really want to set my sights on is a good and fruitful walk, a wonderful period of growing, and learning to love Him more throughout this period of two years which having tasted this little sample, i know is going to be reallllllll trying. but YES i will survive, all that i am, all that i could ever hope to be-
i owe it all to You. (:
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