Psalm 139

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.
1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.

2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

tonight i was reminded of psalm 139. i remember deb fung came to ac once- and she put music to the words of this psalm and its in my head to this day.

How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

the harmony of these two verses still ring in my head. that is the most beautiful part of the psalm to me (aside from i am fearfully and wonderfully made. haha). i will never be able to fully understand or comprehend the Lord. but to be given this glimpse of the mind of God through the mind of Christ is a privilege and a blessing that is amazing.

so today i experienced again what it means to be able to commit my life and emotions to the Lord. its not easy to give up control of your life and your everything, but i think (and hope haha) that im learning. slowly, but surely. and on a very wonderful note, praise God i am seeing signs of answered prayer. it will probably be awhile till i see where exactly He is leading me, but its such a comforting thought to know that He's there and He listens.. to every single one of my prayers. be they serious and deep ones, or the little things i say when i walk on the street and just..talk. haha.

i watched a little bit of yc chairing this afternoon, and they sang this song that zomg aunts we sang at yc last year!! i remember! ed, sam, ade, aunts, kathy.. it was such a wonderful experience serving with you guys. we're not together now..and we're somewhat round the globe, haha. but ade and i are serving with you in spirit. praying for you and i know the music ministry is gonna be fantabulous.!!!

and i'll gladly lay down all my crowns, for the Name by which im saved.
Redeemer, Savior, Friend.